Other Things

While I was at school I kept finding myself wanted to do other things than the ones I was involved in. Except for rugby I wanted to be home, I didn't like my job, school was stressful and I missed my family. Now that I'm home I find myself just wanting to be back in the city. I'm so bitter about so many things and I'm not sure why. A big part of my life was happiness with what I had at the moment and the things I had, however small, to enjoy. I always made it a point to accept, appreciate, love, and fulfill the life I have and everything that happens in that life. I always told myself that if I didn't enjoy what I was doing I would never be happy. I've been unhappy and bitter for a long time and no matter what I do i can't shake it. I keep wanting and wishing for somehting else and I feel like it's going to lead to a lifestyle of pecimism and bitterness and those are the last things I want. Those are the last things I want in my life and the last things I want to describe myself as. There are so many wonderful things, people, places and experiences happening in my life and I'm blogging about being unhappy. I hate blogging and it's become the the way I describe myself. THAT's why i hate myself! I've become one of THOSE people. Thanks blogspot,  thanks to you I've figured out all my problems. You're my best friend. Love Claire

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