God, The Creator and the Human Being

It's late and I should be asleep but like most late nights when I think too much and I can't sleep, I blog. Tonight's subject is one of a heftier thought load than most previous posts, but it's what I have on my mind...so here goes.

The subject is God. Or the Creator, or the individual, or the great mother, or however you choose to view the great force that drives, creates, frees, and illuminates us. Or at least me. I was raised Catholic and I feel that I have deep deep roots in the religion but I also feel that it has given me my own and individual faith.

What I think is so special about that force is that it propels so many, and I think all, of our actions and our thoughts and our cares and our dreams. I see that force, God, in everything. I see it in human interaction and nature most of all. The two go hand in hand in more ways than I can even think of and I think even further testifies to the way that force works. Human beings have a deep desire to be with one another. Some people consume their lives with finding a companion for the rest of their lives. People write songs and make movies and write books and drain themselves to find "the one". People live for other people. We complete each other. And isn't it interesting that human beings can do all those things (write music and books and movies) and we dedicate those enormous gifts to human interaction and the wooing of companions of all kinds- friends, lovers, family. Nothing can make one happier than the acknowledgment of someone close to ones heart.

Family is the best example of human beings fulfilling one another. My brothers and sisters, for example, are all SOOO different and they all complete me in different ways. Both my parents being me to life in different but equally special ways.

My friends and teammates complete me in a totally different way and they challenge me and because of them I know more about myself. Without that interaction I would be a completely different person.

Birth is the beginning of life and it starts with dependency and interaction between two people. The mother to the father and the mother to the baby and the father to the baby. My sister Maggie is pregnant again and I am older this time and can really understand what that means and its mind blowing. The way she is bringing a new life into the world and the way she is raising her son now is one of the most special things I've ever witnessed. It's a matter of interaction and dependency and more than anything LOVE. She, a mother, is love and grace and everything that shows the power and divinity of that force.

Nature, be it a mother and child, a forest, the sea, or the changing of the seasons, is that force, or God, at work. The force brings us into the world and reveals to us all the ways that we can feel truly alive.

Anyway, that's what I think. It's not about religion or organization, I think that life is about feeling alive and being aware of the force that has brought us to where we are and will carry us to the place we are supposed to be. Once I heard a priest say "Do not be afraid, just have faith." I find that so comforting not because I expect some huge white guy to come down and place me in a particular place but rather because I have faith that if I do what makes me happy and if I work for what I want, what is supposed to happen will.

Do not be afraid, just have faith.

much love